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Keep seeing your therapist. Learn to set healthy boundaries. Be kind to yourself and your husband. Sue the "friend" who owes you $$ if she refuses to pay you back. Sierra Judgement Recovery helps people legally seize assets after a civil judgement is put in place in their favor. This way you can seize your friends assets and sell them if she "cannot" pay the judgement. ;-) I know how to set boundaries and believe me it helps. If you don't stand for something you'll fall for anything. Hope this helps you find yourself again.
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Sounds like the tail end of a really disfunctional family. I ended up NOT being too nice by being angry and have alienated a lot off family and friends over the years. But that was just another coping mechanism. What I did and lots of others besides me was go to CoDependants Anonymous, a 12-Step program. It's way cheaper than therapy (free), I've made a lot of friends who don't use me, taught me how to make boundaries and keep them. I spent 11 years taking care of my folks and when it was time to put Mummy in AS, I did and moved away (and let other sibs take over.) Most therapists are very supportive of CoDA. Ask yours. Now I can be "nice" (polite) without being angry and maintain my own boundaries without letting friends or family walk all over me.
Hoping 2019 is your breakthru year!
Betsey P.
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Yes! OMG Yes. Cut the toxic people from your life, and don't look back. For the past 16 years, I have taken care of my declining parents - literally giving up everything else in my life (full-time employment, friends, romantic relationships) that would have given me financial & personal friendships and security in my own later years). My mother passed in April of 2018 of complications from Alzheimer's, and my father is currently struggling with dementia and a myriad of health problems. I have literally begged my two sisters for help over the years and no one ever had the time, and always added, "but you're so good with mom and dad". Yes I was, but it came at a cost I couldn't calculate until now. My older sister is now handicapped and is depending on me to give her the care in her/our elder years, just like I did with mom and dad. Too many times I feel hopeless and alone.

I wish you the very best.
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You kind of have to cut the toxic waste out of your life.That includes your husband if he wants to act that way. Don't feel bad about it either. Good luck
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Here is an excellent article on just *how* to do this:

www.bottomlineinc.com/life/relationships/how-to-gracefully-end-a-bad-relationship-with-a-friend-loved-one-or-business-associate
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I do not understand all the shortcuts people are using in their conversations on here....is there a glossary or something available so I can understand what all the capped initials represent? Thank you.
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Midkid, I can relate to your situation. My own mother has been verbally and emotionally abusive to me for years. After having what I thought was an anxiety attack or a heart attack after a visit where she was extremely nasty and mean to me, I decided to stop subjecting myself to her abuse. It was hard at first because I believed I should be helping her because she is my mother. I finally realized that she resents everything I do for her. She is only abusive to me when we are alone together or on the phone. When anyone else is present, she is the sweet little old lady (87 years old). It is certainly OK to let go of toxic people. Move on with your life and enjoy it. I let go of a toxic friend many years ago - it was such a relief not to hear her negativity and sarcasm any longer. Now, when my mother says anything abusive to me, I hang up the phone. I told her in advance that if she starts being abusive I would hang up. I just say "You're being abusive. I'm hanging up now." She's usually still screaming as I hand up. I decided not to call her any more. She never calls me. BUT, two weeks ago, she was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer which has spread to the point that there is nothing to be done medically. Her oncologist recommend hospice service immediately. Of course, she won't do that voluntarily. My brother, the golden-haired boy, is re-arranging his small home so that my mother can move in and he will take care of her. I have been calling her once a day to ask how she is doing and she's begun talking about the past, from before I was born and her childhood. I have had cancer treatments the past six months and am now in remission, but my mother never called to ask how I was doing. I didn't expect her to. Even during that hard time for me, she would be mean, nasty and abusive to me whenever I called her (which was not often). So, yes, removing toxic people from your life is the sane thing to do. I wish you the best.
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I started that 5 months ago. Even sum of my own children are like this. I just can't do the toxic/narcissistic behaviors anymore. I'm tired of being used . It sux & not to mention the hurt. 2019 has got to be better !!!
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They call this kind narcissists , my mom lives with one right now. Be done everything in my power to get her to get rid of him he’s 45 she is 84 ya alls he wants is to control her and steal everything she has. APS finally removed my mother from her home because of him. I also loved with that kind for 16 years of my life. They aren’t happy until they make the one they picks life unhappy. They thrive or seek out the good and giving kind that is how they can control people that are to giving, they are toxic to you. They will drain your very sole. They play the game of the one that is being abused and make everyone believe its you that is the mean one this is how they gain people into their game. They can’t be happy unless they have someone to control. Don’t do it. Stay away from narcissistic people. They are users and will use you and your money up. Watch UTube videos they have good videos on narcissism also amazon sells some good books you can read on narcissism. Once they figure out that you will no longer play their game is when you really need to watch out for yourself. They for one get angry if they can’t control you anymore or that you have figured out their game. It can get down right dangerous in some cases. I could go in and in about this but your better of reading about it then you will understand people like this and know how to deal with them if you have to see them , if I were you I would just tell your DH that you would rather not go stand your ground. Start saying no instead of yes to people like that and do not feel guilty for not going to see her she well aware of what she has done to you. I remember reading co dependent no more it’s a wonderful book the teachs you hoe to stand up to users and dependent people that pry upon you. It changed my life I was finally able to leave a very toxic abusive relationship after reading it. I people couldn’t believe that that was me telling them no . It really changed me. And it can help you or at least help you understand why these people pray on the weak, not calling you weak by all means you just need to learn to stand up for yourself and take care of yourself first. You won’t believe how many toxic people are in your life as we speak after learning about Co dependent and narcissism. I was amazed on how many others that were using me up. Good luck out with the old in with the new they say.
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Dear Midkid58,

Thank you for your post. I'm so sorry to hear about what happened with your friend and mother-in-law.  

I've had that terrible disease to please since I was a child. I don't know why. Is it just my personality? My DNA? Lack of love from my own mother? Always desperate to help and please and be useful. They say that women tend to need to seen, acknowledged and validated.

Since my father passed two years ago. I have tried so hard to set better boundaries. Even at work I tried to be helpful with the kitchen duties only have the cleaner be upset when I didn't run the dishwasher.  So tired of being taken for granted and feeling like nothing I do matters to anyone.

I sincerely hope 2019, I will be better at taking care of myself. I don't know what that looks like, but I'm going to try.

Sending you hugs, my friend.
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Hi, Midkid is 58, I feel your frustration. I have also reached a place in my life where I refuse to let toxic people affect my life. I have always been the friend that overlooks the negativity they inject into my life. It is unhealthy for me to accept this behavior. I have seen these toxic people become very uncomfortable with the change I have made to not allow them to share their toxic behavior with me.
I took care of my dad who has dementia for five years and after severe burn out he is now living with my brother. I had a one year break during which I helped care for a terminally ill cousin with cancer. I have now moved my mother who has dementia in to my home two months ago and I find myself in a worse situation than I was in when I cared for my dad. I do not have time or the patience to deal with family members or friends who do not help to relieve the pressure I am under but want to lay there issues with me about how I do not conform to their standards.
Keep looking out for yourself and do your best to take care of yourself. I want to let you know you are not alone in your feelings.
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Oh i feel you sister!! Only it was 30 years of FIL...and he was pastor of a large church and everyone bent bowed and scraped bcause they thought he was this almighty “man of god”!! When he died in 2004 the real truth came out and it was not good....and his son who i was married to was just as bad! yes i am a trusting, loving, giving person...,.still am...to a point. Now, ppl have to earn my trust and respect. .and yes i have cut a LOT of toxic ppl from my life in the last few yrs, including some family members. My circle is very small. And i feel no guilt about it either!! You deserve to be treated with respect by others!! And please do NOT feel guilty for putting your self first!!! My life has changed tremendously the last 10 yrs, not all of it good, but i try to see the positive in things and dont dwell on the negative. You cant change ppl,only how you react, or not. I read this blog every day bcause my mom who is 85 just lost her sister to dementia so shes the only one left in her generation and i am noticing changes. I moved in same apt bldg to b close by to help her, and i deal with her negativity on a daily basis..., it gets worse as she gets older, but i deal with it by pointing out the positives and some days have to distance myself.....you hang in there and take care of yourself!!! Oh...and i have chosen to remain single because i WILL never b in the situation again of being physically or mentally abused...,this is my choice, and im much happier!!! You will certainly be in my thoughts daily, to heal and be happy!!
in love and light.....
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My goodness you are an awesome friend! But I hear you - I used to be the most generous, giving person and I guess somewhat naive. But I'm tired of being used by men, friends, and even my own mother. I've made my inner circle very small with people who only want to SHARE not TAKE, TAKE, TAKE will be allowed! It even extended to work. I HAD a co-worker who is always out. But still seems to party on a regular basis. She always wanted me to step in and assist her area - which is on a totally different floor. The last time I declined to assist due to being swamped by my own work - well she acted like it made her MAD! So tired of these users. I will still remain a goodhearted person but people will have to earn it. I think mine does stem from having a very critical, narcissistic mother. I mean if you can't please your own mother and she does not deem you "worthy" who else is going to love you? Well I'm 58 and I FINALLY got it! She is the one who is feeling unworthy, and insecure so she took that out on me - all those years she baffled me. I literally stumbled across an article regarding narcissistic mothers - and she fit every category. Always seemingly in competition with her own daughter! Acting mad if my life was going well - or if anyone complimented me! She is now under my roof and it's already been another 2 years tacked on to 13 years she lived with me off/on. I am so mad at myself for allowing myself to be bullied by her - but it's a new year and I plan to do my own thing. She was supposed to get her own apartment but she hasn't. I have almost cut-off ties with my family too. I have 2 brothers that do the bare minimum. I work full-time, am a single homeowner and now I have a 92 year old to deal with. I don't know what the plan is because she has all her faculties and even drives. But I'm not sure how much longer that will be. I do resent all this responsibility dumped on me and I have spoken up to no avail. Next step is she is going to have to PAY for care - a driver, etc. when it gets to that point. She thinks nothing of running me around all over for her errands. Yep it's a new year and I plan to make some changes. Peace and love to all the caretakers!
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This is a true resolution! Stand firm and take back your power! I am woman, hear me roar!
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Ann Landers used to say no one can take advantage of you without your permission.
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As I've gotten older, removing "toxic" people from my life has become easier because, quite frankly, I don't have the energy to deal with their crap any more. Whenever I start to feel angry or frustrated with someone or a situation, I just walk away and ignore it/them. If they are a worthwhile person, eventually they will come around and things will work out. If not, I'm better off without them. Sometimes it takes a few rounds to figure out whether they are worth keeping around or not, but after a few "bad" rounds it's just easier to let the relationship die. I've done that recently with some relatives.....cousins....who talk a good talk when you see them, but then never follow through on their promises. So I just quit being the one to make the calls, send the cards, etc. with no positive responses. I figured it wasn't worth my energy when I have other friends who ARE worth the effort and I get positive results from them. What I've learned is that it is not the NUMBER of relationships/friendships you have, but the QUALITY of them. I'd rather have one or two good friends, than a dozen "aquaintences" with whom the relationship is a dead end. I've also always found that belonging to a club of people with similar interests is more satisfying than relying on my friends or family. I can choose to attend or not attend events as I like, without offending anyone or owing anyone an explanation. I don't have to get close with anyone if I don't want to, but I always am welcome and feel at home at club events. I consider these people my "friends" but without the closeness and expectations that come with being "best friends" so to speak. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it sure has taken the pressure off of me because I don't feel I have to "please" these folks by giving more of myself than I am able to. And it sure is easy to walk away from people you see might be "toxic". Anyway, good luck with the resolution and I hope you can keep on track. You will feel much better and over time you will find it easier to take care of yourself.
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Midkid58,
Your answers always make me smile. Have a Happy New Year girl. May we all have a fresh start!
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Sad but true, many people who you think are your friends, really aren't.
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Fifty Eight must be the magic year when we say "No more!" I have also thinned out the list of people in my life. Family seems to be where I am cutting ties. Siblings who are blood think they have the right to use me as a doormat. I have found that they aren't people that I would seek out to be in my life on a normal basis, and just because they are blood I have kept them there anyway. No more. Because you are blood does not give you the right to step over the boundaries of kindness, concern. and compassion.

I have also been cutting out daughter in law's that can't seem to be bothered to say "thank you" for boxes, envelopes, money, and gifts. Also grandchildren that are old enough to text, phone, or facebook to simply say "hello", but only do so when they need something. I have found that when I have nothing to give, they move on to the next person on the list. It is not my responsibility to care for those people. Actually I do them a disservice to continue to fund their every whim.

My circle of friends and family is much smaller than it has been in years. However, I enjoy this circle much more. It is filled with family and friends that are supportive, kind, understanding, and who help me be a better version of myself. Cutting out the excess, I seem to have more time to start a company, to do the things that make me happy, to have a life filled with joy. What took me so long?? :)
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I totally understand. I worked my tail off day and night for months to help my mother move after she asked me to. Then she abruptly changed her mind and blamed me because she could not admit to others she couldn't follow thru on her [latest] plans. She never called me again. I saw her at a family holiday celebration and I have been cc'd on a couple of emails she sent, raving about how wonderful her friends and everyone else are [do they offer to take her in? No. They are SMART!]. She lost no money or anything at my hands, but tells everyone she lost "so much" (violins). Not a word of praise or thanks for me. Boy did I feel used. She has moved on to the next sucker in the family (#2 for the 2nd time) (I was #3). She's a pretty sharp and cunning elderly lady who is sugar sweet to mostly non-family members - they have no idea of her salty side, and when she wants something. I've decided to back out and let the pieces fall where they may in her latest plans (as has #1). I am so much happier with the drama and her narcissism out of my life, as I can't let her discount me as a person anymore. I never thought I'd say that, I wanted nothing more than to have a loving friendship and relationship and be a good daughter and take care of her, but that experience showed me she did not care about me or my welfare. I had to back away from #2 as well because she absorbed so much of my mother's toxicity (I am open to positive relations in the future). They can talk about me and others behind backs. I want no part of it. Life is much quieter and I miss sharing news and conversation; but it's peaceful, and I have friends and family members who care about me and are worthy of my energy and care.

The book "Boundaries" is helpful, but I found that once I stopped taking the bait and saying "no" to toxic communication, these people disappeared.

In the end, if you don't take care if yourself life will not be worth living and you will sacrifice your goodness and talents for nothing. Please take good care of yourself/yourselves everyone.
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For starters that good friend is not only not good but truly not a friend. I believe you are strong enough to stand your ground regarding your MIL and her repulsive behavior. After all you continue to provide for your husband you don't owe him more by having to see her. You are blessed with 5 children and many grandchildren so that is where hopefully your focus can be if and when you are feeling down. I admire all you have withstood while still standing on two feet.
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