New caretaker and first post. I so appreciate your thoughts and guidance on the below issue:
My mother was recently diagnosed with stage 4 cancer primary to right lung but with extensive metastases to liver and throughout her skeletal system (skull to hips). She has a malignant pleural effusion and severe bone pain which is so far uncontrolled. She has repeatedly stated that she wants hospice (which I support if she wants it), though she has an extremely promising bio-marker (PD-L1 @ 90%) which indicates that her cancer could be very responsive to Keytruda, an immunotherapy. Obviously I support this as well if that is the path she chooses.
Mom has been experiencing cognitive side effects from her pain meds which often leave her forgetful, repetitive, and contradictory in what she says, but she remains mostly adamant about wanting hospice.
A family friend has also been instrumental in assisting with caregiving and she is vociferously opposed to hospice, given the promise of the treatment. Her belief is that I need to be a bigger cheerleader for the treatment and to not acquiesce to her repeated requests for hospice.
The other day, I called her oncologist to express my concern for the severe confusion my mom has been experiencing. The doctor ordered an MRI of her brain to check for metastasis there, which I assumed the upcoming PET scan would show (apparently it doesn't). Getting her to agree to the MRI was difficult.
After significant difficulties getting her there (pain, anxiety), while in the waiting room, she told me she could not do the MRI and she wanted to go home and do hospice. I gently pushed back, reminding her that she had agreed to do this and that the doctor had wanted to get a picture of her head. She said some very hurtful things to (at) me and eventually I relented and brought her back out. I asked her friend to help calm her down, and she eventually did convince her to go in and do the MRI, with her friend there the whole time.
I later learned that my mom, in her agitation, told her friend untrue things including that I yelled at her, called her several names, etc. Her friend believed her and has proceeded to give me the cold shoulder. Needless to say, I was immensely surprised and hurt; both that my mom would say false things (which I had already mentally braced for, at some point), but gobsmacked that the friend believed her.
By the following evening, I told the friend that we needed to talk. My husband was next to me. The friend proceeded to lay into me with a 15 minute vicious vitriol about how I went around my mom's back by "asking" for the MRI, how the trauma of the MRI ruined any chance of mom acceding to therapy, how I needed to be a cheerleader and not acquiesce to hospice, about how much physical damage happened to her while in the MRI room with my mom to keep her calm. It was ugly.
She does care about my mom, and she does provide a lot of help that alleviates some pressure off of us. But this outburst to me, the way delivered, the falsehoods thrown at me, the medical nonsense she spouted, and then subsequently trying to demonize me to my stepdad and my mom's neighbor friends is difficult to bear.
I felt like caring for my mom was close to the limit of what I could handle, physically and emotionally, but not past my limit. This new stressor feels like a crushing burden and I feel like I have to walk on egg-shells to keep the peace and keep my sanity. I don't know that I have the strength to do this while another caretaker is seemingly out to paint me as some mal-intentioned negative-nancy debby-downer saboteur to anybody that will listen.
I don't know what to do?
I would schedule them for an evaluation. Her friend means well but shouldn’t be calling the shots or going on the attack. So when alone maybe you can talk to your mom about why she is thinking those things of you. When my mom was accusing my sister of horrible untrue things we think it had to do with wanting control of her life back. Having hospice might relax mom as others will be in charge of her care not you or her friend to argue or cajole. Take care and do something nice for yourself. This is hard.
My mom has hospice team that is helping with assistance.
Your stress level seem high.
My sister and i,,,have been advocating for my mom since 2010 dementia. Legally assigned by court. Medical guardians and financial accountability here.
We were angry, stressed and learning the steps to take.
We have good and bad days. But most of all I stand back and know that she doesn't control this disease it controls her, so when hurtful words or frustration comes from her we work with it instead of against it.
We also had a cousin that believed my mom and the mid truths she was discussing with them. Even when they knew she was deteriorating with Dementia. But we didn't stop her talks with him.
He has passed recently. My mom is abilities to manager cell phone was failing and also she hid them and said it was stolen. So we just discontinued the cell phone and things just workout. But you'll find on your own road and you're on challenges that you will have different things you will have to do.
Remember this is your mom's contact friend...you do not need to justify yourself to her.
Good luck and breath
If your mother is adamant that she wants to be placed on hospice, then her wishes should be honored - despite what anyone else in the family prefers.
I agree with Alva. Mom's wishes need to be honored. She is tired and in pain. The medication is probably causing Dementia like symtoms. The chemo can cause problems too. Call her doctor and order hospice. Tell her friend that Chemo will not help now. Will just prolong the inevitable. She has to let Mom do what she needs to. I think we know when enough is enough. Let Mom have her rest. She is tired of fighting.
Your friend, her friend, is suffering, and well intentioned. BUT your mother has made her wishes known and you understand them. YOU are responsible now to follow her guidance. Tell the friend that gently and once. Whether she forgives you for not doing it HER way rather than your mother's is neither here nor there at this point. You, in my opinion, owe it to your mom. I promised my Dad I would stand between him and anyone who interfered with his wishes with a shotgun, and I would have done it if I had to. That's my opinion. If the doctors are being honest with you they will tell you it is too late for keytruda to do anything but give your mom a few more weeks of misery, if that.
As to the caregiver "painting you" as anything, then SHAME ON HER, and ignore her. Continue to fight for your Mom's protection. Taking her from hospice and into treatment is almost certainly a mistake; I think the suffering you would see as a result would make you wish you had not been guided by someone in deep denial to the reality that your Mom is actively dying now. Please discuss all this with hospice and let them intervene FOR you when necessary.
I am so sorry this has happened to you and you are being made out to be a villain.
I don’t know what I would do. Obviously, you are supportive of your mother and what she desires. It’s up to your mom to decide her own medical care.
I am sure that you don’t appreciate that your mom fabricated a story about you to tell her friend.
Do you have any idea why she would do such a thing? Is she looking for sympathy or attention?
I wish that your mom’s friend would have spoken to you before automatically believing what your mom said.
Best wishes to you and your mom.
Even if you don't have medical POA, this woman has grossly overstepped boundaries, and she needs to be told that either she supports your mother's decisions or be banished from contact with her.
Not to be the true Debbie Downer, but I can't imagine any therapy is going to be significantly helpful to someone with cancer throughout her body. It may buy her some time, but at what cost? Your mom has made her position clear. She will be getting weaker and less able to fend off pressure from the friend, and it's your job to help her choose the quality of life she desires.