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We've experienced some loss-both our parents now gone., even the loss of a grandchild,(deceased), and finally, siblings, who all are alive and fairly well, are older now, and stopped coming to visit much at all anymore. With one adult child grieving , and another so highly independent of us , and living far away, we are on our own, with the exception of one adult middle child who, fortunately, is very involved in our lives and lives nearby. I remain appreciative of those who remain by my side and of a somewhat disabled spouse still living at Home with me and of sound mind . We are welcome to visit siblings, on both sides, but I must admit that we are very comfortable, in how we came to deal with our losses.
I am so sorry for you having lost your entire family. I do realize that I may not be totally understanding, not standing in your shoes. I like to think that I would go On into the Future Believing and coping with Loss much like I have in the past and present. I believe that we are never really alone , perhaps even at the cost of sounding a little crazy, but that which we've been taught to believe. I make lists of what's left to appreciate in my Life . There are times I may feel that I, too, have So many Issues to deal with, or , in sounding a little crazy again, view things as I have None at All. I literally place my Life in Gods hands. I pray for strength and good health, which prevails.. I live a Life according to Gods Plan for me . I truly believe that God may Close one door, but Open another.
Your husband is now in the Care of a specialized facility. Rather than view that as a negative in your Life , despite the loss, can you add that to your Gratitude List ? That at least he or you are not without Shelter and suffering without care. You can still visit him and enjoy moments together, in the Present. While he's being cared for, you are free to do as you like, though, sorry , it's all on your own now. You can get involved in a local Church, or Senior Center, Clubs, or Orgs. that may appeal to you and where you may find others in a similar situation as yourself. Or, you can stay "involved" in your husbands life at the Facility , by visiting often , and offering to assist with activities of which there are several still offered , even for memory care residents. Activities offered to patients reaffirm the fact, that our loved ones are actually not Totally lost to us and a good facility should offer ways that we can challenge their memories and reconnect with us , even if only momentarily.
You can "cope" one day at a time ., until you may not feel so much like your "coping" with an "Issue" , but instead discovering a new side to Yourself that has learned Life's lessons and the many twists and turns that Marriage and Relationships Really have to offer and what we are all Really all about. Many Conditions that affect us physically, mentally, or both can prevail for a decade or longer, even Alzheimer's. Think about how you may want to continue to relate to your husband now, or how you see Yourself,in relation to him., particularly since his basic needs are already under management. Focus on the Present, not dwelling on the Past, or worrying about the Future. Treat yourself well!
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I am so very sorry for all of this loss for you, Moonshell.
Can you tell us more?
What relationships have you lost, and when did these loved ones leave you?

Clearly you are feeling a lot of grief.
Are you feeling hopeless or depressed?
Have you spoken to your doctor about feeling helpless in the face of all this loss?

There's no magic to getting "over" grieving, or through it.
But there ARE things to help, and it's a matter of gaining enough strength to access them.
Some people are helped by one thing, and some by another.

Do know that prolonged or complicated grieving is now recognized in the DSM-5 manual as a mental condition that is covered by almost all insurance; you should see first your family doctor for a checkup. Ask if there is any chance that a mild anti-depressant my help you form a bridge over the waters. Ask if he/she feels that a psychologist (NONE of this ONLINE nonsense) might help you.

I am so sorry for all this grief and overwhelming loss.
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