I'm alone in my home state, my that and mother are in a temporary nursing home in Virginia. They have no family there to care for them, no friends who care to deal with them, they only have each other. I suppose that's apropos considering they've cut me their only child from their lives for years and years even after I protested and tried to help them. They have no close to wear or anyone to go bring them what they need, so they wear what the hospital gives them, breaks my heart. My father still believes I've stolen his money, he believes everyone has stolen his money. He should be looking at the attorneys who are stealing all his money! These attorney's have no shame in asking for a 10000.00 retainer to go before a judge. My father has been pronounced in competent by two different psychiatrist at two different times this year. Now my mother who is in the nursing home is my fathers DPOA, I know crazier it gets right! I don't like holidays and for years they are forever said. I hate Facebook, I'm so sick of seeing how wonderful everyone's lovely lives are with their families. Sorry a bit bitter today, I try to be of better spirits but it's hard. I called to check on my folks spoke to my dad didn't know what to say. So I said I loved him the job market is rough right now, he reminded me I shouldn't be worrying about money since I have all of his, OH GOD! Geeeezzzzz it feels today so heavy that it's never going to end as it's been devastating all the many losses! Yet still I can't see the through the forest to the clearing I'm so lost Holiday's are about family I have none so I'm here today with the caregivers site trying to reach out to the only people that even have a clue to what's it's like to be me! God Bless you all.....
Zoo life, if you are central Arkansas by any chance, there's a place at my table for you. My daughter is spending it with her beau's side of the family, so it's just hubby, son, and me. I had invited another friend who just lost his wife, but he was blessed to be out of state with a daughter of his. There will come a time when it will hurt a little less, and you will make your own traditions, even if they start with a wild yell, S**** YOU BURL IVES!!
Hey, you needed that good cry...here's hoping and praying you find a way to some better holidays and better times for your life down the road, and not too far....