I have taken care of my husband with severe MS for the last 8 yrs. He has had 3 UTI's in the last couple years and each time he would he would lose his strength. He would go to a NH for rehab which helped. The last time he did not get enough strength back for me to care for him at home. I had to make the decision that he needed to live in a home for more care than i could give him. He has lived there for the last 1 1/2 years but now has become much weaker and is paralyzed accept for his left arm and hand. He has accepted all this and never complains.
We have 2 daughters that work full time and live out of state. This past year i have suffered from stress exhaustion, thyroid/adrenal fatique after he moved to a home. I have seeked help and am feeling better. Going through this i have realized i would like to get an apt. close to my daughters that live out of state but i can't afford to move him in his condition. I feel guilty wanting to do this but i also feel i need to live my life to. The girls are all i have plus one 16 yr old grandaughter. It would be hard to visit him due to the distance i would move to. I divorced him in '96 and we remarried in 2006 he was much better then. Now i feel like i'm deserting him. I can do nothing more for him. I am 70 and he is 73.
Sigh. I am so sorry for your plight. Anyone who wouldn't encourage you to go nearer your daughters should be required to walk in your shoes a good long while.
I assume your daughters completely and unequivocally support your moving near them. Perhaps, although you couldn't move your husband right away, you might be able to do so with some planning, help from your daughters, husband's family, and a big dose of good fortune...
I surely wish you well.
But it does sound as if you're a bit too close to the trees to be able to see the wood. Is there any possibility that you could get away for a proper break and take quiet time to think things through uninterrupted?
You really are in a hard place, and I hope and pray something can be done to make it less awful on everyone!!